to you

so as i was standing in the line at the grocery store today, i got scared. nadine, the smiley cashier at foodland, was ringing up my yogurt, raisinets, and spaghettios. (yeah, i'm in college.) she asked "do you have a maikai card?", the grocery points card used in foodlands in hawaii, and maybe other places, that's a good question... but anyway, i was punching in my phone number to get free groceries, and i got really scared. i thought, wow, there are so many little things you'll never know about. so many tiny pieces of life that don't seem to matter, but really make up the big picture. the little things like maikai cards, and the cute couple that reminds me of us except brown and aisan, the funny airbass guy at The Bus stop, the color of the carpet, the sticky low D key on the grand piano in the practice rooms, etc. etc. etc. it's terrifying to me that you'll never see all those things, that i'll forget them and you'll never know. and then i started thinking about life. and how maybe we will never really know anyone. and no one will ever really know me. i can't remember what it's like anymore, you know?

i hate people who post sad things :)