Friday, October 30, 2009

life's not a song

i have a dear friend who is on her last round of chemo. she's been preparing to die for the past year. she traveled the world, spent time with family, and lived to the fullest. she also suffered through round after round of chemo, losing major amounts of weight and hair (and eyelashes which we talked about the other day, never thought about losing those) and she is just an amazing person. this poem was inspired by a surprise party her friend lisa threw for her. it was a "celebrate karina's life" party. no crying allowed. only dancing. anyway, her face when she walked in and saw all of us there to love her and show support was something ill never forget.

take every memory, every single dream
suck the ideas from the whole wide world
lay them out on your coffee table.
can you piece together that puzzle without
the big picture?

there's a room, full of balloons and lemons yellow
a sea of faces to yell "surprise!"
everything you ever loved, gathered
to see you die.
who would be in your room?

go to the park and watch that couple
a thousand years old and counting
not a word passing, just a familiar smile
if love was something you could buy,
how much would you pay?

don't push your luck, don't buy more time.
life's not a song- no reason or rhyme.

we enter and exit through the same doors
skin teeth bone blood
ultimately all wanting the same thing.
the trick is not to lose after you find.
how long can you hold off?

4 comments:

  1. I love to read the things you write! I love you!

    mom

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  2. Hey Collette! It's been a long time! I just wanted to say that I love your poem and I truly feel for you with the issues with your brother. Robby, my younger brother, was quite similar to your brother. Oh, it just tears at my heart to remember those times. If he wasn't fighting about it with us, then he was fighting it and being close minded within himself. I understand a little of your frustration, because you just want to make them see but they don't won't to and it's their decision. But anyway. I don't have any answers for you expect for keep praying for him and being a friend. Don't give up on him. Robby is now serving a mission in Jacksonville,FL and loving it. A TRUE, 100% miracle as far as I can see!! Hold on! :)

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  3. Oh... This is Rachel (Jackson) Thompsen... oops.

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  4. P.S. (sorry for commenting three times..) BUT I have been wanting to tell you that I invited you to my reception, BUT your invite got sent back to me saying that I had the wrong address. So I looked your address up again and as far as I could tell I had written it correct. So with a week left, and not knowing what to do.. you now might think that I just didn't invite you. Um, I know this might sound funny to be bringing it up, but the fact that you were invited but you probably thought you weren't has eaten at me since then. So sorry! I cherish the memories we had... LONG time ago! I still think your pretty awesome! :) Have a spectacular day!

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