summer catch up.

i swear more things happened this summer than me losing my mind.
let these 400000000000000 pictures prove it to you.

 we went to moab for my charles family reunion.
during this entire hike, i was freaking out that remington was going to die. from heat stroke, smothering in his bjorn carrier, or his neck being unsupported and snapping. at one point i was ready to turn back and said something like, "guys, he's all i have. i'm not having more. this is it."
luckily we stuck it out and enjoyed the rest of the day.

also, doing this hike 6 weeks postpartum was killer.

teamwork. 

sibling loves.

figuring out daily life with an infant. learning about nap schedules, how to get remy to eat, how to get anything done with a little guy taking up every second of the day.

planting the flowers travis bought me for mother's bought me for mother's day

using your child for your own selfish humor. 

we spent many a day at the pool with friends. i finally braved up (with the help of antidepressants and anti anxiety meds) and let remy get all the way in the pool. he loved playing in the water.

we went to idaho falls to stay with my grandparents for the fourth of july. sadly travis was at the fire department and had to stay in murray, but we had fun.

mom, who IS this guy with the giant bucket on his head???

holding my cousin's new baby. 

twins? no thank you.

being a firewife is rough when you have a new baby. i am thankful for travis's job and that he loves what he does, but there were definitely times this summer when i wished he could do something else. being the only parent for 48 hours at a time every week did not help my postpartum depression. still, i am very proud of travis and his hard work. 

 remy experienced his first ER visist. i was convinced (aka my postartum anxiety was convinced) that he had been injured after a family member flipped him to his stomach and he bonked his head. i insisted we take him to the ER, even though we were out of our insurance network. (in idaho.) travis told me, "you're his mom, we do what you say." of course he was totally fine. it was great to have that support from travis.

i am so glad i'm on pills now and am not such a freak about remy's safety.

travis and i celebrated our third anniversary. we decided it was fitting to go to lagoon because, "it's where fun is!" and we didn't have much fun at all the past year. other than the month before i got pregnant, we could count on one hand the amount of times we had sex our third year of marriage. we slept in separate beds for most of it, as i was too sick to co-sleep. after all that horror, we decided to ride roller coasters and be kids for a day.

things didn't quite go as planned. 

here i am after puking several times. 

it was only too fitting that i would throw up on this year's anniversary, commemorating the year we had. 

not only did i puke, but i puked up lamb. 

on two strangers. 

like all over them. 

happy anniversary. 

poor travis was pretty traumatized, probably remembering how awful it was to watch me battling hyperemesis. 

speaking of travis, he went to new mexico for a week to attend BOMB SCHOOL. for the fire department. we missed him tons 

thank goodness my mom slept over every night that week. even though it was her first week of school (she is a teacher at an online school) and she had just started a new job/promotion. (way to go mom!) 

we were so happy when travis made it home, especially after his flight was delayed an extra day. 

i celebrated my unofficial birthday party the day before the actual day with my girlfriends. of course we went to the place we loved to go when we were in junior high: 7 peaks water park. 

it was a fabulous day without babies or husbands or boyfriends. just us ladies, being crazy. 

we even were brave enough to go down the most terrifying slide, something i never would have done before the past year. after than many months on bedrest, i have more of a tendency now to go outside of my comfort zone. water slides, rock climbing in places i never thought i could, etc. 

after being in the loony bin and starving for three days, i made it down to prepregnancy weight. hallelujah. 

we gave our boy a name and a blessing in church. travis and i spoke before hand about what we wanted him to be blessed with. it was really important to me that remington know how much he changed his mother's life for the better. travis also said something to the effect that remington's smile would light up others in his life. if you know remy, you know that he is always smiling. oh our little family. we're pretty cute. 

it's been exciting to watch remington grow and develop more of his personality this summer. he loves to be on the go, doesn't love to eat his bottle, like if i wasn't his mom, he would starve to death because who else could handle fighting with him about it 6 times a day, and he smiles all the time. 

God knew i needed a smiling baby to keep me from going postpartum on him. 

not a good joke collette. 

he started rolling from front to back at three months and back to front at four. 

 giving kisses. wet kisses.

workin' the bedhead.

if you want to keep him happy, he needs something to entertain him at all times.

first time trying solids, we chose carrots. he adored them.

adventuring all summer to break up the monotony of day to day life. 

up at island park to our cabin. 

my dad may have taken remy on a four wheeler ride without my knowledge.

my dad may have been banned from remy for a few hours afterwards. 

i chopped all my hair off. 

when i was considering whether or not to go through with it, one of my brilliant friends, roxanne miller, said this. "do it. reinvent yourself." 

i loved that. i wanted to be a different person than the person i have been the past year. a person who was suffering, miserable, helpless, crazy, and sad. 

so i broke out of my comfort zone and did the chop. you know how i always do drastic things to my hair when i'm going through ish. 

i love it. 

plus it only takes about five minutes to style,

 which is awesome for the mommy thing. 

travis surprised me with an overnight get-a-way to anniversary inn. 

we stayed in the phantom of the opera room,

which was sweet because i grew up on the phantom. 

it was crazy to sleep in and then eat breakfast together

(with a bebe, you sleep and eat in shifts.) 

new beast of a camera that i LOVE. 

went to MGMT with my girlfriends. 

so much fun to go to a loud concert and dance like a fool.

love that morgan moved home. 

don't lose your mind and get committed. 

because it will cost you a fortune. 

luckily, our insurance helped a lot. 

but we are at about $11,000 for my pregnancy and then the psych ward thing. 

without insurance my pregnancy would have been in the hundred thousands. 

wild. 

and there you go. what a wild summer. 

now that we're caught up, this blog can resume normalcy. 

xo.